13 Questions to Douwe

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The 100 Day Warrior has made me a better father and husband. I have become more accepting and I look at things differently. I feel that I have grown closer to my children and my wife. I used to live fast in a fast moving world, nowadays I feel present at the center of my own life.

Decision making has gotten easier, it costs me less effort. And what I said under question 7: what you are able to give comes back to you. I feel younger; not just physically but also internally. I’m 40 but I don’t feel 40. It is not a vanity thing, it is about a feeling of freedom.

13 questions to Nina

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Incorporating clean eating and daily meditation into my life wasn’t too difficult for me. What made the journey tough were all the feelings that apparently were hiding underneath the surface of my awareness and I had been trying to avoid unconsciously. I’d best describe the 100 days as a roller coaster of unheard emotions that I suddenly had to deal with. It took a while for me to accept that this was something I had to do if I wanted to go forward in my life.

Dreams and intentions for 2016 (and beyond)

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Every year my first post of the year contains this particular exercise that I am about to do, let me explain how it works: I take a deep breath and start writing down the dreams and intentions that flow from my heart for 5 minutes, without thinking, without rehearsing and without editing afterwards. Afterwards I often peak at last years post and see if there were dreams that came true and dreams that stayed unfulfilled. Every year my first post of the year contains this particular exercise that I am about to do, let me explain how it works: I take a deep breath and start writing down the dreams and intentions that flow from my heart for 5 minutes, without thinking, without rehearsing and without editing afterwards. Afterwards I often peak at last years post and see if there were dreams that came true and dreams that stayed unfulfilled.

Let me connect with my breath for a minute and we can get started:

I want to feel tenderness often

I want to feel open all the time

I want to give my heart away

I want to love

I want to be loved

I want to feel free

I want to laugh often and cry when I need to

I want to be understood

I want to make meaning

I want to have pizza with Mystery Girl and melt when I look into her eyes

I want to build a powerful movement

I want to keep facilitating life-changing experiences

I want to feel save

I want others to feel save

I want to fall in love

I want to contribute to health and wellbeing of others

I want to be surrounded by smart people with warm hearts and make a contribution to a more humane and sustainable world together.

I want to be forgiving

I want to be kind

I want to be physically fit and strong

I want the Warrior tribe to keep growing and find its own momentum

I want the Warrior THNK tank to become a success

I would love an amazing business partner

I would love an amazing woman by my side

I need friends (and honest and constructive feedback)

I need support (and hugs and cuddles)

I need loyalty (give me some credit)

I need encouragement

I need my spiritual practice

I need to take care of myself

I need courage

I need a vacation this year

I shall further continue on my path

I shall stay true to my heart and purpose, even when it gets scary

I shall be honest

I shall contribute to the growth of others

I shall put others before me

I shall do my best

I shall persevere

I wish my dreams will come true

I wish your dreams will come true

I wish all living beings to live in peace and harmony with each other.

I wish that all humans would stop inflicting pain on themselves and other beings, human or not.

This is it! This is my list for 2016. Now it is time to look at what I wrote last year. [searches for old posts on the internet and looks] Definitely some dreams came true. I can honestly say that some sort of tribe is growing (the picture featured in this post is your evidence). I found some financial stability and my house situation has improved too. I did create amazing experiences for my participants.

The cool thing about repeating this exercise every year is that you can see how some dreams come true and some dreams change a bit. In 2011 I want to live in a house big enough to give meditation courses from. Nowadays I have my own zendo (meditation hall), although it is not in my house. In 2011 I also wrote that I wanted to work with warm, brilliant, creative people and have lots of fun doing it and that I wanted to coach very talented people. Those dreams have manifested totally!

I just looked back at the posts from previous years. This is what I wrote in 2011 (Bali, Indonesia), this is what I wrote in 2012 (Tel Aviv, Israel) and this is what I wrote in 2013 (Cali, Colombia). Last year’s post (2015) was written in Amsterdam after coming back from a retreat in Sweden. You will notice that I have searched for love and stability for all those years but that I am improving at stability. Now love. 😉 Nevertheless many small and big dreams and intentions have manifested along the way and I had more adventures than I ever could imagine.

I totally recommend trying this exercise yourself. If you are brave enough, post your results in the comments.

13 Questions to Steven

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During the first episode of the 100 Day Warrior (in Sept 2014) I asked a handful of people from the creative industry to send me questions that they would like to be answered by the participants of the 100 Day Warrior. Out of approximately 30 questions I selected 13 that seem to cover most of […]

Acceptance & Forgiveness: A Day On A Blue Marble

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In the end life is already perfect as it is. We are spending time on this tiny blue marble, spinning around its axis, cycling around one of the billions and billions of stars. When we realize that everything happens in this very moment and that we have nothing else than the here and the now we can surrender and bathe in consciousness. But at least for me, this realization comes and goes. Sometimes I feel it clearly, sometimes I struggle. And seen from the bigger picture that is perfectly ok too.

Climbing Back On The Wagon: On How To Overcome Obstacles

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The ego is a mighty opponent. I come to this conclusion every day. That thing that we experience as ‘myself’, that thing that manufactures thoughts and feelings and draws conclusions that seem logical and natural but turns out to be quite conditioned by people and circumstances when we take a closer look; that thing doesn’t […]

Bruising My Face And My Ego Simultaneously: 5 Lessons On Failure And Shame

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At home I lie down with an ice pack on my head, contemplating what had happened. I feel humbled and humiliated by the big impact that just a bit of fear can have on the outcome of events. At a glance you could argue that only minor mistakes were made. We shot the video, even though I notified the gym a bit too late the resistance that came up was addressed politely, and I almost lifted a badass weight. But if you look deeper and when I become more honest with myself we can see that there are some deep-rooted patterns at work.

Day 3: Random Things That Made Me Happy Today

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Just a couple of random things that made me feel happy today:

– I flirted with the barista of the coffee place near to my new work place. And she made me a great cappuccino in return.
– My interior design and branding warriors are helping me with advice how to make my new space into a nice workspace. I feel very grateful for their help.
– My mom helped my pick out curtains (which were approved by the aforementioned design police) and we had fun doing it.
I am receiving very positive feedback from participants who are happy with their trainers. Makes me feel proud of the guys.